One of those days

           It’s one of those days when I learn more about myself. I woke up at the crack of dawn to go on an adventure with my younger sister before I left to go back to school. She discovered this bridge and thought it would make epic pictures for me, she was right. :) It was fun driving around with her, then after bridge pictures (and one trespassing moment) we went for coffee and I packed my things to go back to my beloved college. it’s an hour’s drive to get there and in that time I tried not to think (I’ve been doing too much of that lately). However, my try was in vain, there’s just too much going on. For instance, My sister is engaged, she’s not getting married for a while yet but it’s going to happen one day. Honestly, I didn’t expect this day to be coming so soon, just like my Godsons, are they really supposed to grow that fast? I mean come on, I was there when they were born! was it really THAT long ago? But yet the oldest is walking and can practically have a talk with you, when did this happen?? the youngest is crawling I swear to jimmy buffet he was JUST born, yea so it Christmas time but I swear it was just yesterday!!
   Also, what’s with older people and their need to know my relationship status? I pinky promise you it’s worse that FACEBOOK! It’s like this:
“So who are you seeing?”
“No one”
“No one?!” *almost heart attack face*
“Yes, No One”
“Why Not???!!”
“Because……”
“You’re not getting any younger!”
“I”M 20!!!”
“That’s how old I was when I got married!!”
“I’m sorry??” *Blank Stare*
umm so what ever happened to just letting things happen, to letting God’s will be done? oh buuuut you don’t want to say that to them unless you want to get the “old guy in a flood story” and trust me you’re in for it on that one my friend!
The truth is I’m not really looking for anyone and I wouldn’t know what to do if I was. For instance, a few weeks ago, my heart was stolen by a Cadet. DO NOT ROLL YOUR EYES!! I had no control over it, he was playing the guitar and singing my FAVE songs, it was lovely, just lovely. I never spoke to him, just listened to him and some of my friends talk. I let it go as just one of those moments where you get to see that there is hope, that I’m incapable of being interested (is that the word you’re supposed to use? dear heavens, I’m hopeless!! tell no one you read this!!)

     Anyways, I told my friends about it and I realized that I never spoke to him because I’m a chicken, yes, yes, you read that right, I admit to being a chicken. I just can’t seem to gather nerve to talk to people, because underneath this happy bubbly person, is a shy person. You knew it, the person across the room from you knew it the only one who didn’t know was me. Now after doing a few totally silly and shy person like things, I’ve learned that I’m not likely to change overnight, but because of all of this I have discovered an amazing artist who I ADORE! thank you, epic cadet, who will never know about any of this for unknowingly introducing me to Jarle Bernhoft :)
okey dokey, that’s enough of this for now, I’m off to dreamland for a few winks then it’s off to conquer Monday. BTW by the time I post this it will be my Best friend/ brother person’s 20th birthday, happy birthday Stan aka Ethan! I wish you many happy days and I look forward to being there for some of them.