I said too much...

Tonight I got the wonderful chance to eat dinner with my Judson big Sister and my Twin and it was nice. But As I was walking back to my dorm, I had a thought that I’ve had for the last few years, whenever I walk away from a social encounter “I said to much”. At times I’m a people person, I can really shine in a crowd, but on the flip side of that I can dominate a conversation and spend hours talking about myself. Upon deeper reflection I think about what kind of person this makes me, I ask myself why I talk so much and at time I feel as though I say too much and yet nothing at all. then sometimes I can talk too much about the wrong thing: too much negativity, too much gossip, and too much seriousness. I’ve asked my oldest friends about how they feel about my incessant need to talk and the answer is mixed, at times it’s a comfort, sometimes my friends will call me and ask me to just babble. I have a lot to work on this year as a person, but that’s a part of growing up I’m learning: constantly improving who you are, but now I think it’s time for me to improve myself for his glory and not my own.  It’s hard to let go of all that I have been for all that I can be in him. But yet it should have been the first thing I did.  Maybe I should try not to talk for a day and see how that goes…